Monday, July 2, 2007

From Squeaky Clean to Wild child, and Back Again

I just had a consultation with our Dean. I was afraid she was going to kick me out straightaway, after explaining why I visited her today, but thankfully that was not the case.

“I have mellowed down considerably through the years”, I said. “And whatever my motivations were in the past that made me get them doesn’t matter now. I’m definitely considering having them removed.” Referring to my tattoos- I had three on my right arm, which I got from way back in my college days in UP.

The nun sat back quietly as she listened to me. She had thick eyebrows on a kind face, and she rested her chin on her clasped hands. “I see that you have changed, from your independent, willful ways. Now that you are on this path, maybe it is time that you consider the other people in your life.” I had told her that I was living with my 81 year-old grandmother here in Tacloban, while the rest of my family are in the states.

I never thought I would really pursue the shift in career. Having a tattoo was certainly no big deal before, but it is now that I’m seeking to be in the health care profession. I guess I had reached the point where either the tattoos go or I do, albeit my 1.72 GWA. It would be so easy for me to just pack my bags again, get a job, and have my old life back- but like what she said; I have other people to consider now other than myself. Besides, it seemed like a good plan also.

I don’t know why I feel sad about it. I guess removing them is like removing part of me. I’ll miss that guy who stole dates, potentially wrecked havoc on the highway, climbed mountains, swam oceans, went all out (almost burning down an entire boarding house!) in the quest for beauty, looked up to crazy Miriam, who came out to the school via email and blog, who quit his job without a guarantee of a better offer, and who hated and loved men with all his heart.

Ah, maybe I still have a little bit of him still hidden somewhere. Beneath the freshly scrubbed, squeaky-clean student dressed in immaculate white.

13 comments:

mink_twink said...

thadie, know what, about your tattoo i learned something yesterday on how to remove your tattoo in the most cheapest manner... all you have to do is to purchase i can of condesed or evaporated milk, any brand. Open the can, remove the lid of the can, then take the lid of the can then scratch the tattoo off your skin, ewan ko na lang kung hindi matanggal yan... heheheh kidding aside, good day po.!

MISTERHUBS said...

Seems like you're becoming more mature to me. Embrace the change. :-)

Phoenix said...

@ mink_wink: loko ka talaga = ) haaay i even enlisted the help of my friends kasi wala dito sa tacloban and technology para i-remove yun with minimal scarring, they are looking for clinics.. I'll do it this end of july siguro, hello Vicky Belo! lol! Good day to you too, dear ; )

@ misterhubs: i will, most probably. napansin ko lang, choices get harder and more complex as we get older. 'di bale, I'll still have fun pero less crazy ; )

runawaycat said...

Hey why do you need to remove them? Can't you wear it underneath your sleeve? The tattoos are a part of who you are... Sucks.

Phoenix said...

@ runawaycat: tell me about it! i'm sad cause they have been part of me, but the school won't allow it.. the clinical instructors are strict are there are certain procedures we have to perform in RLE where we do it with our skin exposed.. so its hard to hide. at least i already told the authorities ; )

JOSH said...

haaaay thad... daig mo pang nagpari ni yan ahhh...all dressed in white!

Well at least ur into it and i know u'll survive!

Phoenix said...

@ josh: sana nga josh = ) last man standing ; ) malakas din elimination dito e

maika said...

hala.. ang sad.. ayos lang yan, at least once in your life nagka tattoo ka :)
I've been thinking about getting a tattoo for the longest time. I don't know where i want it though :)

Phoenix said...

@ maika: most girls put a pretty tattoo somewhere on their back, but think twice (or thrice!) 'cause you might want to have it removed later.. hmm

runawaycat said...

It hurts really bad to get it off right? Say you have a pain phobia disorder :P

P.S: Cool new picture :)

Phoenix said...

@ runawaycat: thanks! hope it won't hurt that much.. huhuhu

jan_morata@yahoo.com said...

thad, don't let anyone, whether madre or padre, rob you of who you really are. the norm is not always the right path, you know.

if taking out your tattoo would mean taking out a part of your history, then think a million times.taking it out would not mean you'll be more mature.

besides, are there rules against tattoed nurses? i have doctor friends who have them.

Phoenix said...

@ Ma'am Jan: Hey!! It made my day to receive a comment from you!= ) Hmm about the tattoo thing, if it weren't for school policy I won't consider removing it. I did my research and I learned I have several options, so its not all that bad. I was only afraid of the possible scarring. I won't be totally compromising, as I realized, what makes me me is on the inside, not what's on the outside. The ink of my skin is but a mere symbol.. ; )

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