Tuesday, May 13, 2008

Sweet Addiction

Of my many addictions, writing was the one that stayed. Video games and cigarettes came and went, seemingly fluid-like and leaving not a dent or any reminder in my life. But my compulsion for writing, about anything and everything, sensible and otherwise, stuck with me like an awful song that played repeatedly in my head.

Oh yes, such a sweet addiction. To be powerful enough to create a reality you can shape, however briefly, and existing only in the mind. My blog is as pliable as clay, and I can shape it in any which way that is pleasing to me. Perhaps it is also an attempt to seize beauty as it happens in life- to paint with words the wonders that one sees, to expose truths, or to record flashes of brilliance in unsullied ideas, or simply bear witness to everyday dramas and insanities.

To the vengeful, writing can inflict to enemies as much damage as a regular pistol shot right to the heart. Terrible, but I am not innocent of such sin. Nevertheless my lack of courage and general flakiness prompts me to remove the literary assault shortly after it is done. (But not of course until after making sure that a certain amount of damage had been inflicted.)

Words, like swords, can be a thing of beauty as much as it is a thing of power. I love, I weep, I delight, I scream- each emotion stains my writing with vivid hues of purple, indigo and red: it becomes as unique as a Picasso abstract, and as powerful as a Goya black painting.

Each time I promise to quit blogging I turn into a liar shortly thereafter. Writing is as addictive as Morphine, and I need a shot everyday to dull the pain. I write to stay alive.
Or...


Ewan ko sa inyo pero KSP lang siguro talaga ako.

8 comments:

Mark Xander said...

One of my addictions is checking up on you. :) Lookin' great there, Thaddie. I'm glad your old man is proud of you. I miss my dad tuloy..

I owe you several dvd's, Thad! ;)

dabo said...

"I suppose no man can violate his nature......We pass for what we are." R.W. Emerson

Mugen said...

Perhaps it is also an attempt to seize beauty as it happens in life- to paint with words the wonders that one sees, to expose truths, or to record flashes of brilliance in unsullied ideas, or simply bear witness to everyday dramas and insanities.

- Same reason why I keep on writing, and why, I am having an obsession with words these days.

If only I could capture life images in my head and put them in words that best describe them.

Badingako said...

I on the other hand am addicted to reading blogs. yes, blogs. not books. I don't know why, but whenever i get to read thoughts and ideas, stories (real or made up)from other people, I feel the need to open myself as well and share the side of my life.

If thaddie has a skill in writing that I very much admire, it's his ability to end an entry well (of course, next to his incomparable articles).

Keep on writing thaddie.
Your fans are waiting for the next great writing.

MakMak said...

Words - it's how me immortalize fleeting moments, or thoughts for that matter.

Ours is defintely one of the most fascinating addiction one can have.

Phoenix said...

@ mark: aw sweet = ) can't wait to see the tape of my interview

@ dabo: ang lalim!

@ mugen: syempre, idol ata kita = )

@ remcyl: aw sis, flattered ako. chos!

@ makmak: i second that

berto said...

Whoever owns this blog, I would like to say that he has a great idea of choosing a topic.

Phoenix said...

@ berto: really? 'di biro yan ha. thanks = )

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